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This is the same road, just changed a little. Snow settling where it usually doesn’t. Light warming the edges of a morning that is moving slower than usual.

Nothing about it feels urgent. Just familiar, softened.

We don’t usually get this much snow on the lower end of the East Coast.

Enough to quiet things. Enough to loosen the shape of the day. Enough to make everything feel breifly unfamiliar in a gentle way.

The last time I remember seeing snow like this was in New York City. A different life. A different version of me.

I was there with my best friend at the time – walking without much of a plan, letting the city unfold itself block by block. Cold air, shared laughter, the kind of closeness that comes from having nowhere specific to be.

The snow makes me nostalgic for those moments. Not the ending – just the middle. The part before things broke open.

Because things did end badly between us. Not all at once. But in the way things do when too much is said, and some things can’t be taken back.

Time didn’t soften it the way I thought it would. Distance didn’t either. Eventually, what was covered became visible again.

That’s what the snow does here. It blankets everything just long enough to make it feel gentle. Then it starts to melt.

And when it does, it isn’t pretty. The snow turns dark. Dirty at the edges. Pushed aside, thinned out, impossible to romanticize.

What’s left isn’t the version you want to remember – its the truth underneath. The parts that were always there, just hidden for awhile.

Seeing it now feels different. Less like longing. More like understanding.

Some seasons are beautiful. Some endings are messy. Both can be true.

The snow keeps falling for now – quiet, unassuming, temporary.

And when it’s gone something else will take its place. Not untouched. Just real.

For now, this is enough.